It is 21 years ago this Day that my childrens Father was cruelly snatched away from them gone well before his time,totally unexpected and left us as a family bereft .Some people never leave much of a mark on the world and he often said he was like a ripple on the water and once he was gone he thought it would be as if he never exsisted.How daft was he the kids never got over him going and there is not a Day goes by that I don't think of him but I see him in his children and there is not one day of our lives together that I regret even the bad times .He had an amazing sense of humour and could hold an audience he should have been on stage .The other role he could have played was a movie star as he was often my Clint Eastwood.After 21 years he is sadly missed R I P Paddy my beautiful man.

Rocking my world this Friday well not getting the job I know I would have been really good at and kicking myself for not being as focussed  as I should have been.Coming second best is no consolation I can tell you not a good place to be .I am grateful for the opportunity to try for something again after failing the first time must be barking to have a go a second time .So I am upsetting myself again so enough of that. I  am greatful for my wonderful family who I love very much and the sun is shining and I have a lot to be thankful for so we will say no more on the subject but I will leave you with a small piece I did ages ago.This is how I feel this morning so I am going to find my pillow and scream into it thus taking Virginias advice see if it makes me feel any better have the headache so wont scream too loud .

What is rocking my world this friday well I have been a real giddy bod this week as I recently got hold of an address for an old friend  .Her Name is Rita and I have spent a life time wondering where she went to. We lost touch in 1970 after she moved away from south Yorkshire and I have just spoken to her on the phone she now lives in Devon and and I cannot believe it has taken all this time to catch up with each other I am still up in the air about it we were such good friends and I have so missed her over the years .Lots to catch up on and I have every intention of keeping in touch .I know it is Saturday but It still rocked my Friday  just the thought that she might ring.Life still has some surprises and speaking to Rita was a real blast from the past loved  it.

Most of my images are in various journals of differant sizes the more recent ones are from my reclaimed not used 2006 Diary that I almost recycled.

Noise

This page was so messy and I looked at it and thought Noise, now noise can be anything you want it to be it can be the ticking of a clock to the Band making music but to me then that would be the word sound.The word noise can be a sudden sound ,an unexplained sound or just something differant when I first saw this image all I could think of with that amount of birds for hair it is going to be hellishly noisy and so needed to make the background very strong to complement it .

Ok I give in maybe I will play what is rocking my world this Friday it seems everyone we know has joined in so watch this space.

Missing family

My virginia and family are away at a place near Scarborough this week and I so miss them can't wait for them to come home and they have only just gone.

I did this one a few week ago when I thought about eyes and how as human beings we cannot hide what we are thinking because the eyes give it away.

We can see joy, fear , love excitement and a whole heap of emotions  I look back at photos and often think I could see sadness for a long time in pics that were taken after my hubby Paddy died and now I often see pure joy when in the presence of my family because I love them so much .

Off to see Nanny Mcphee  with the grandkids this morning and I am giddier than they are.

This is one of my messy ones I loved this one managed to get paint on everything  all kitchen cupboards and even kitchen floor it was great fun not sure what I want to say other than death is not the end  it is just the beginning.

NO words

Haven't put any words to this one yet, not sure why but I enjoyed this page so much when doing it and Virginia says maybe it does not need any.Time will tell I can come back to it later,sometimes I  need Virginias eye on my work difficult to tell as I seem to get more random the more I do. Not sure whether I am improving or not it is so differant to what I was doing originally .But as Dyan says anything goes .

It is my 17th Wedding anniversary today and amazingly My hubby Shaun had managed to find card and chocolates to put on my pillow before I went to bed, so he was a day early not half a day late like he has been in the past .That was a pleasant surprise and set the tone for the bank holiday weekend.

Energy

Like this one reminds me of when I weighed about seven and a half stones and had discovered Bruce Springsteen still had hubby Father to my three children and needed to reinvent myself .This is how I felt as if I was super women and could tackle anything.It was back in the eighties and money was very tight and we were going through a recession and other half was in and out of work also had to put up with him working away .This proved to be difficult missed him like mad but realised I could cope without him  being there.It was a crappy time in my life but it made me understand I did not need another person I was capable of making decisions and taking control .Maybe it was preparation for the time to come when I would lose him to an early death.Such is life.